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Driving lessons commence next week, and so do my adventures as the washer of the dead ( :D) I'm mostly writing this because I need very badly to cheer the eff up. I have a feeling it's the main cause of my recent medical troubles.
Cut warning: If you're one of my brothers that hasn't yet started T and today isn't the day you need to hear someone go on and on about their own, don't touch the cut.
So Doctor L cut my T down to .4 a week instead of 1 CC every two weeks. This is supposed to give me a more even level of das hormones. For some strange reason, I've suddenly become afraid of the needle. It makes no effing sense. I know it doesn't hurt. I've gotten two hep B shots and a blood test and those didn't hurt at all. I've been giving myself shots since two days before Halloween '09 with no problem. Hell, it's not even a thing about "having second thoughts" because I realize that this it's done all that it's ever going to do and nothing else will change.
While I sat there today, I gave consideration to the possibility of ending my HRT since I won't be getting any more boyish. Then I realized that if I did, then the bleeding would start again and I might get the low energy and I might start feeling miserable and mopey. Oh, and the fat redistribution; nearly forgot about that.
For now, I'll just see if I get my nerve back once I'm happier. Then I'll see if the center is offering any more TG guy groups- maybe I'll find a buddy that'll shoot me? If not, I'll just have to ask the clinic. The nurse told me when I first started that they had a patient who came down every two weeks for his shot because he couldn't stand to give himself one.
Now for something fun! Logical Fall and![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sugar_for_sugar won the FFA Creepy Contest, so I drew them both as Hogwarts Student ghosts.
Cut warning: If you're one of my brothers that hasn't yet started T and today isn't the day you need to hear someone go on and on about their own, don't touch the cut.
So Doctor L cut my T down to .4 a week instead of 1 CC every two weeks. This is supposed to give me a more even level of das hormones. For some strange reason, I've suddenly become afraid of the needle. It makes no effing sense. I know it doesn't hurt. I've gotten two hep B shots and a blood test and those didn't hurt at all. I've been giving myself shots since two days before Halloween '09 with no problem. Hell, it's not even a thing about "having second thoughts" because I realize that this it's done all that it's ever going to do and nothing else will change.
While I sat there today, I gave consideration to the possibility of ending my HRT since I won't be getting any more boyish. Then I realized that if I did, then the bleeding would start again and I might get the low energy and I might start feeling miserable and mopey. Oh, and the fat redistribution; nearly forgot about that.
For now, I'll just see if I get my nerve back once I'm happier. Then I'll see if the center is offering any more TG guy groups- maybe I'll find a buddy that'll shoot me? If not, I'll just have to ask the clinic. The nurse told me when I first started that they had a patient who came down every two weeks for his shot because he couldn't stand to give himself one.
Now for something fun! Logical Fall and
sugar_for_sugar won the FFA Creepy Contest, so I drew them both as Hogwarts Student ghosts.![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
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Date: Sunday, August 21st, 2011 04:43 pm (UTC)From:And there really ought to be more student ghosts at Hogwarts, considering their rather... Callous approach to student safety.
Considering the other issue... *offers a careful 'guy-hug'*
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Date: Sunday, August 21st, 2011 07:46 pm (UTC)From:and I missed the FFA last night :( ace drawings though! x
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Date: Tuesday, August 23rd, 2011 03:27 pm (UTC)From:Those are some lovely drawings, you have an amazing talent!
And by the way, I hate being nosy but mind if you share your snail mail address? :3 I want to send you Valentine's/Christmas/birthday/cheer up cards, or just random cards every now and then ^_^ You don't have to if you don't want, I'll understand that :)
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Date: Saturday, August 27th, 2011 12:51 am (UTC)From:Good luck with the T :) Maybe you could try the cream/pills instead? Or is that not an option where you are?