The Original Haus of Ron Abuse

Discussing old fandoms with new people ( vincent_kinneas and doing it to my own house as not to clutter Pixie's journal.

( Continued conversation )

-Chicago was determined to spit on me as much as earthly possible before I left and make my trip home a real bitch. ( On the way to the train station )

- Don't Panic- there are still only 2 ships in the Harry Potter world and if you don't sail on one, you are on the other, even if you don't know it. (H P Fandom, Y U No use brains? DA-Birds, Y U No understand humor?)

- heron_advocate, when's your gifting day (the day we give you gifts)? You should request some art. It's more productive.

- City day Tuesday: Catching up with Zero, going to hospital (:DDD), picking up Rx

- While I was on the train, I drew Ackley, my serial killer character from The Hitchhiker Diaries RP (;n;). S'not done yet, but it's fun.

Have you gotten a chance to listen to Lady Gaga's new song?
I sure have. (Excess stuff is behind the cuts; feel free to skip)

I felt like Lady Gaga wrote it just for the rainbow crowd. She did, of course, but I mean as a gift to us.
( Society + Gay = OTP )

Because of all of that, at some point in my mind I twisted "Born This Way" into something it was never meant to be. I wasn't thinking of it as a song at all, but as a weapon.
( Rainbow Ray Gun! )

I wasn't thinking of myself or my musical tastes, but about what other people would say and think. I count three ironies.

The lyrics leaked a few days ago. I read them and instantly I was apprehensive. I mean, even I couldn't ignore how... how "in your face" they looked. Oh, Gaga, how can you make this work? I thought. I wasn't excited. I was disappointed by how heavy-handed it was. How would this be received?

As it dawned on me that I'd have to listen to it, too, I began to feel afraid of how much I'd like it. My musical tastes vary, but if I don't like a song, it'll take an act of severe psychology for me to give it a second try. If I didn't like Born This Way, I'd have to wait another lifetime to get another mainstream radio-played song that mentioned GLB explicitly. And I could just forget about hearing a song which says "transgender".

( Why this song was so important )

Finally, as I tried to draw, I thought "screw it, don't save it. If you build it up, it'll never live up to your own hype."[2] So I played it for the first time.

My eyes were tearing up. Not kidding.

There's nothing to say about the song as far as I'm concerned. I don't want to build it up or try to sell it to people who have not heard it. Hell, I don't even want to sell it to people who heard it and find that it isn't pleasing to their ears because of their musical tastes.

I like it. It's relevant to me. Therefore, this song is for me. That's all.

I will say that reading the lyrics cold and judging the song based on just that (even if you plan to change your mind and give it a chance after) is a bad idea, and I regret my impatience. With the music, it makes so. Much. Sense.[3]

A lot of the fans on thehausofgaga were disappointed with the song, which I understand. It's more happy, more 90's pop, and that doesn't sound good to everyone's ears. And heck, there are a lot of Gaga's songs that are popular that I just don't like (like all but four of "The Fame Monster"...). I feel really sorry for the fans who were disappointed in it because I saw how long they waited and how excited they were. Letdowns suck. It's not as though they can help not liking it. We can't choose what we like (as Gaga said!).

Hey... y'know, I just realized that if I hadn't liked this song, I wouldn't have disappointed her! Even if it was a gift! 'Cause the gift is saying "you don't choose what you like, you just happen to like it because that's how you are!"

Oh, Gaga, you brilliant Mama Monster who loves us all so! I probably won't like a few songs on the new album either :3

That being said, there will be people that I'll have to defend this song to. Not the ones who say "I don't like this song" but the people who have commentary beyond "it's not my musical style."
( Warning- If you're on my Friends List, NONE of this applies to you. ) As for me? The song helps me. I like it and when I'm upset, I'll probably need it. And I'm not the only one who feels that way. Dislike Born This Way all you want, but please keep it at "I don't like it ". Remarks about the lyrics being "bad" are about as called for as taking the "I believe in and love you" note someone's parent/guardian put into his backpack and saying "this is drivel".

[1]First idiot who says "What about Katy Perry?" in seriousness and isn't trolling (who doesn't love a good lol Trolling?) about it is going to get an earful. Seriously- love it or hate it, if you don't understand that "I Kissed a Girl" is offensive, you need to ask someone.
[2] By the way, let me say that on reflection this is the kind of song that shouldn't be built up. Ever. It's a song that should find someone who needs it. If it's built up, it won't work. You need to be alone and it just come on. Then it's just like a needed voice telling you "hey, look, you're ok. ... And shoot, I am really glad it didn't find me like that. If I was feeling miserable about my issues and turned on the radio and this came on and I heard it for the first time, I'd cry hard.
[3]I'm glad I read the lyrics first because i would've been actual crying if I didn't know already what was coming somewhat. Though I wouldn't understand half of what she was saying.

My sleep schedule is fecked and nothing ever looks as good as it did the night before. I wondered where my patience (recent thing) had gone, and then I realized just where (you know, Jack). Rrrgh.

I'm sorry my Northland lovers, but I've expanded my job search. Now I'm looking for hospital jobs in New York as well. Also considering Mortuary school very, very hard after speaking to a mortician who very strongly recommended I go to Worsham.
( No1curr LOL )


Doesn't look as bad as it did a few seconds ago...


*"if it makes you happy/is what you want" doesn't count as a thought XP
** Before you ask, FFS, no I have not ever seen Six Feet Under (got it confused with Medium that one time, Grue ^.^;;;) . Why is everyone jizzing all over this show? Is it something I "need" to watch the way I supposedly "need" to watch Glee?

My gmail's been sending out mail linking to emiliyauxeadomed at blogspot. I've changed my password, run a virus scan, and thrown Malwarebytes at the problem. Hopefully, it'll fix it. It ought to, but I'm nervous. Keep in mind, I'll never send you a link without explaining exactly what's in it, and probably in great detail. Also, I'll sign my name.

I'm very sorry about this, everyone.

In the meantime, here are some safe links for you.

The Vitamin String Quartet covers Lady Gaga Not all of her songs, but the more popular/well known ones. Their rendition of "Eh Eh" and "Alejandro" are great favorites of mine.
The Vitamin String Quartet
Most of 'em ripped by me, but one of them I actually bought! That one was "House of Cards", a song I have never heard in the original version, but love in this version. I have not decided yet if I want to hear the original version because I like not knowing the lyrics.

NPR's Top 25 Songs of 2008 I haven't listened to all of the songs yet. I tried, but got stuck on "White Winter Hymnal", which is just... unf.

NPR's Top 30 Songs of 2009: To call one’s self “weird” or “odd” is re-e-eally pretentious for a Klosterman of reasons, but I know I have weird tastes in music. It doesn’t follow much of a pattern. I’m picky, and I don’t know if anyone would like my current favorite songs.

Except for people who listen to NPR! In 2009, I downloaded the NPR top thirty songs of 2009 and I’m still blown away by all of them.
*I’d never play “Sleepyhead” or “Knotty Pine” for anyone because I have a hard time imagining I’m not the only one that doesn’t find the voices irritating
*Wilco (The Song) and Heads Will Roll sound like they’d be boring, but they’re wonderful
*I can’t even listen to French Navy because it makes me so happy that it hurts
*They grow on you. I wasn’t sure about Summertime Clothes, but it’s growing on me. Suspect I might’ve just psyched myself into it.
*Andrew Bird’s “Oh No” is another one of those songs that depresses me but I keep going back to it.

This is the best music collection since “Before These Crowded Streets”.Shaddap, I like Dave Matthews Band

*Rubs eyes*

Shaddap! You'll get an entry! I'm... I'm a little busy, is all. Art backed up, that is. ... Have to get Gala her art and Q. BowlerhatBarr his challenge art, too. Next week, the promised two folders of NPR music H-here, have a collaborative piece.

ONTDCreepy FFA Presents: An ONTDCreepy Exclusive Original
Words by avatarofchaos
Art by harpsi_fizz

Premise: December 4th, 2010, challengers would present a sentence or paragraph from the fictional parenting book “The Necromomicon: Raising a Little Half-Human, Half-Eldrich God Child” to be illustrated.

( From the Creepy FFA )

Oh, and here... *carelessly kinda throws* Highest score posted on my LJ before Christmas gets ... art of themselves as a ghost. Yeh. I should have free time by then. And should be closer on my road map to my dream job.
Dat's rite, you gaiz. Psychology's going to have to wait; I've found my calling for now. I've found some connections to it, too.
I'm gonna be working the morgue.

Abracadaver

In about seven hours, I'll be leaving for Chicago. This will be the last post from New York for quite a while, I believe. Gosh, I'm nervous. So comment (please), or I'll be sad >[



Jetta's art from the week before last's "Challenge Harp". She wanted Red Riding Hood as a werewolf. This was my first time ever drawing a werewolf and I had to use a reference. No tracing, though.

The drawings from last post will be up soon, as soon as I'm settled in from moving.

[October 29th- Sapphira Vern's 28th birthday]

Yesterday on ontdcreepy's Free For All post, I asked people to challenge me to draw pokemon as intoxicated human Hogwarts students. It was way too much fun. I tried to color them the way Ken Sugimori colors.

( Colliding Kiss asked for Hufflepuff Gengar )

( Nekonezume asked for Ludicolo Slytherin )

( Teira wanted Clefairy in Slytherin )

I had so much fun that I implore you to either do one of your own or give me a Pokemon and a Hogwarts House to draw next.

More friends on this... that's what I need to make! I have... what, eight? I want this place to take off, damn it! Here are my updates!

* Just finished the audio book Paul is Undead and really enjoyed it. Now I'm audio-reading Room by Emma Donoghue. It's... upsetting me. Lots. Especially while I'm not reading it.

*Yesterday was Roy Blount Jr's birthday! My absolute favorite panelist on Wait Wait... Don't Tell Me!

*Finally, someone stopped saying "Twilight has poor grammar" and made a blog highlighting every fail. Reasoning with Vampires They'renotf**kingvampires.

*Have train ticket to Chicago. Arriving October 27th at 8:45 AM!

*Looking into the band The Bird and The Bee. Their song Love Letter to Japan was good and now this one, Ray Gun is getting to me. 'Course, that could just be because it's reminding me of that goddamned audio book... man, that thing is really upsetting.

Here, have some art from Gears&Prisms.


Desdemona Crastomancy and Conor Lively

My livejournal is going to be Friends Only for a few entries while I detox myself from some extreme annoyance involving a Roaring Thundertwat from a (mostly dead) Potter community and an a teeth-grindingly unintentionally irritating friend. I used to wonder what "wishy-washy" meant, wonder why it was bad, wonder why people got upset with a lack of self confidence and a constant apologetic nature.

Then I met her and boy did I find out.

I'm so happy October is here! Best month ever! Iunno what I like about it, but I have a feeling it has a lot to do with the moving or the letter O or the creeeeeeepy or the Halloween. Or the Scorpio, the pumpkins, the Orange, or the pretty fall colors. Either way I'm gonna...

~ Finally mail out the October Surprise (wish me luck, loves)
~ Continue learning ASL (I can do yes, no, name, like, dislike, and most of the letters)
~ Mooooooooooooove
~ Meme this journal, meme it inside out
~ Visit ontdcreepy a lot more
~ Get fearless


Some old art that I drew with a pencil in 2007, re-found, and colored digitally but forgot to put up. Art with pencil first + Scan + digi color = <3

In the meantime, you want to be the second commenter on my journal. You do.

Oh- and who wants to pick an episode of the 1995/2000 remake of The Outer Limits, watch it on Hulu with me and discuss it?
(I love the episode "First Anniversary" so much)

Edit:
Unexpected accidents and deaths having occurred during the test, the Ebonites—who are, actually, a peaceful and honorable alien civilization—eventually ask for such an immoral and inhuman experimentation to end at once, but nonetheless fail in preventing one last man to be fatally killed...
-Wiki synopsis of the episode Nightmare

I was killed once! But it wasn't fatally.

Urgh... Ogod, my head... no, f**k drinking, seriously. Call me a fag, call me a little kid all you want, but never again will I have rum and normal cigarettes. No, I can't deal with them.

From now on, if I get messed up, it'll be on Raspberry Vodka+Cranberry juice and cherry or vanilla flavored cigarettes. Seriously, mr_liam_to_you, how do you do it?!



Too sick to finish my latest project "Fangs&Fourtacles: The Summer of Her B.O.B" tonight. Originally posted here on my DA a few weeks ago.

Ihateverything.
More water.

P.S: UMMMMM WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? Right across from Kim Cattrall. Seriously, is someone trolling?

It was supposed to be a quick sketch gift for a Finnish RPer from ontdcreepy, but I couldn't stop. It's almost October. I'm le excited. Le nervous about moving.


It takes place in a dirt-poor town called Modest, surrounded by woodland and by a very foggy bog that, until Reverend Praxton came to town, the people wanted little to do with.

( It was that day the thick fog perpetually hanging around the bog came winding into town, settling at around waist level and never quite leaving. )

Last night, mr_liam_to_you was nice enough to let me talk to him non-stop
(almost literally) from 3:50 AM to 8:30. I'm quite sure I woke up at around this time yesterday... but I haven't been to sleep yet. Christalmighty... sleep was the one thing I could never fight. Can go hours without peeing, can do ok without eating, but my body always loses to the fight with sleep.

I've never been up for 24 hours before. And look! Liam an' I had a brain baby! queerrage_lite! My communities never get very big, so I do not expect much.


( Conor Lively is a softer version of rage )

The ronbigbang is holding their "drabbles based on art" contest, so I submitted a few old pieces of Ron!art, not really expecting much. Then when I had a look today, someone wrote a story based on the one I was most pleased with- "Fear and Anticipation in Ron Weasley"!

Finally! :D

I don't expect it to go very far, but I'm so very happy that someone was nice enough to drabble based on that old series. If I'm allowed to vote, though, I'll be voting for number five. Just... because. ^.-